One week out of the MKMMA program and I am still hanging out with the big boys, Haanel, Mandino, and Emerson. I have visited with some other gems as well, but these are my roommates as of right now. My new life’s growth is soaring, THRIVING! I am writing nearly everyday, meeting many of my daily requires with a…..happy knack? What?!?!?!?Whoop! Whoop!
Throughout the MKMMA experience Mark, Davene, and Trish stressed the importance of making friends with the guy or gal in the glass and, especially the future self. I hear them, but hearing something and implementing it are two very different things. My future self was always more like an after thought. Like, I didn’t eat all day and then got home and binged on chips and hummus. Now I will go make dinner for my son and probably eat dinner, too. Oh, crap, sorry future self, guess it is going to be your job to lose those extra pounds. Oooooohhhh, cookies. Yeah, so, not friends just yet, more like a personal trainer I wanted to give a really hard task and see it they were up to the challenge. But now that we are onto the next chapter in this book of life, post MKMMA, post weekly webinars where I get a jolt of inspiration, post exercises and assignments that I did because I am a ‘good’ student; I must inspire myself in my areas of challenge, not just the easy street stuff, my go-to success subjects. I must choose to be an inspiration to myself and deeply connected to my future self and the impact my present has on her. I must do this, because I am worthy of my highest expression, I am deserving of all the good that is meant just for me to enjoy; I am nature’s greatest miracle after all. And that is true, right now.
You see, when I thought of my future self, she was awesome. She is fully aligned with her spirit, profoundly connected and aware of her life purpose, confident in herself, trusting of the Universal mind and it’s infallible nature, living a life of gratitude, fulfillment, health, wealth, and love. And, you know what, I didn’t feel good enough for her. Can you believe that? So, I was making it hard on her, God love me. She was just too awesome to be friends with the likes of me. Even writing this now, it seems silly to say, but it was true, maybe it will be true again tomorrow. As Og said, this too shall pass. But today, in this moment, I am feeling in harmony with my true self, future self, Divine expression. Yippy!!!! I am feeling it people, and it feels gooooooooooooddddddd! What was the turning point you ask? Well, a song interestingly enough. On the final call of the class, our fearless (fear-using) leaders put a slideshow to music and had me crying like a baby the whole thing. Tissues littering the floor around me like a chalk outline kind of crying. So, after the webinar, I thought, what are some songs in my personal soundtrack of this journey. Two came to mind instantly, ‘Adventure of a Lifetime’ by Coldplay and ‘Be Welcome Here’ by Peter Makena. Now, the second song in particular had a profound effect on me during two pivotal, transformative times in my life. One was last year while I was living in Costa Rica. I hear this song for the first time during an early morning meditation.
And you’ll the day will come
when will elation you will greet
yourself at your own door
to give your heart back to the self
to the stranger
who has loved you
all your life
impact me profoundly. During this moment, I knew the stranger was my soul, whom I had not yet known intimately as a result of living life in my head, for other people’s expectations, ideals, and ways, and distrusting my ability to handle the brilliance that existed within me. And then realizing in that moment, that no matter how much I denied, ignored, dismissed, rejected, or silenced this authentic spiritual me, my soul (I) still loved me. I still looked at this fragmented version of me with appreciation, acceptance, gratitude, and reverence. Wow!!! I know, right, that’s some deep stuff, huh? Of course, since that time, this song has held a special place in my heart. Now, fast forward to me hearing it after the MKMMA experience with all the knowledge and expansion that has taken place within me over the past five months and I have another epiphany with the song. The future self, the one I am not good enough to become friends with, let alone become; is the stranger, too. The most divine, self actualized expression of me, without concrete weighing her down, a multitude of voices in her head drowning out the truth, or a pair of eyes that only see what is outside of her. Double WOW! My future self, the stranger that has loved me all my life, is always my friend, without exception, regardless of whether I eat the cookie or not, finish my three reads that day, or see the beauty and power within me at any given moment. My future self is holding the vision, the space, and the confidence that we are becoming one. Thank God for her. She is awesome! Just like me.
P.S. Say hello to your future self, the stranger that has loved you for all your life, today! He or she will be sitting next to mine watching us with such love and appreciation.