Week 23 The Hardest Thing I have ever done

This program is, by far, one of the hardest things I have ever done.  And I have taken on some pretty challenging endeavors in my life.  It came to me at a point in my life when I was truly ready to grow up.  And not in the Western sense of having the material expressions of adulthood, house, car, career, and 401K.  I am talking about the 3 components of the Law of Least Effort.  I am talking about the Science of Getting Rich.  I am talking about the Masterkey System.  I am referring to being in conscious possession of my authentic power, expressed with wisdom, focus, enthusiasm, and oriented towards service to the greater good.  I am talking about having and, more importantly, implementing the tools to live my ideal life in this world.  

The amount of persistence, concentration, and faith that I have cultivate over the past 5 months has surpassed anything I can remember existing in my life before.  I find myself repeating an anthem, “Nothing shall retard my new life’s growth.” when I face challenges, obstacles, and the inner resistance that has been crippling to my progress in the past.  I am bouncing back from setbacks and letdowns like a frickin’ ninja here people and what once would be a deterrent to future growth in the past, have now become motivations to get back to the material and try it again.  I have done many brave things in my life, but staying the course with the MKMMA experience and, most importantly, surrendering to the comprehensive program created by Mark, Davene, and all the people who were called into the Hero’s journey that helped bring this vision to fruition has tested my commitment and resolve over and over.  How badly do you want to reach your potential as a human being Jen?  Do you want it bad enough to get out of this warm, cozy bed and check in with the gal in glass?  How much do you want that DMP to be your actual reality?  Then it is time to repeat Do It Now 25 times and then figure out your A and B and DO IT NOW.  Are you willing to do it differently?  Are you capable of missing the mark, seeing where improve is needed, and then go forward with enthusiasm?  HELL YEAH!

So at this point in the game of life, I am willing to bare it all and share with you where I am.  I talked on the last webcast about how an unfulfilled life is an unfulfilled life, no matter what it looks like.  It could be unrealized dreams that you never tried for and have convinced yourself is not even possible at this point in your life.  It can be sitting on the couch day after day watching whatever programming works for you.  It might be living with some form of addiction or self-sabotaging pattern that keeps you stuck in dissatisfying circumstances.  Maybe you just go to sleep feeling that life has lost its luster and you are just going through the motions.  Perhaps, like me, you are focused on an awesome fulfilled future but waiting for some benevolent creator to plop it in your lap after you figure out the worthiness formula.  Whatever it looks like, something is missing, desires are unfulfilled, and the most important ingredient for an unfulfilled life, you don’t feel the power within you to change anything.  Sprinkle a heavy dose of conditioning on top, and you have a person who never gets to experience their heart desire fulfilled.  I have always told people, I would rather spend my whole life believing that I can have, do and be whatever I desire than succumb to the idea that we have no control over our destiny and things are going to happen the way they do regardless of intention, attention, and effort.  This program was built for people like me, baby!  And even though I may still be going through the motions at times, reading my DMP to get in the third time before I fall into bed, I am going to fake it until I become it.  Change doesn’t happen overnight, but everything can shift in an instant.  I think I heard somewhere it has a compounding effect, or something like that.  😉

After this course, I know I have the power within me.  And even more awesome than that, I have put down the blame game.  I no longer look at my life and think there is something wrong with me and when I fix that thing, I will be gifted the life of my dreams.  The empowered adult is driving the ship.  My actions are no longer dependent and dictated by an abandoned child within me that is still trying to earn her reward from some parent figure (God) thinking that things aren’t fair and how did that mean man over there end up in that big house and the nice guy is riddled with cancer.  The child within is now along for the ride.  And instead of doing the same things that lead me to where I was when I got here, or judging the things I did as inappropriate in some way, I celebrate it all.  I celebrate my perceived successes and failures as experiences of expansion and gifts of clarity.  I know myself.  What could be a better gift than that.  I may still be refining what I want in life, but now I see that as a beautiful thing and not evidence of my inability to make a choice, commit, or just plain indecision.  I will forever being growing, refining, and expanding.  And knowing myself has empowered me with the vision to fulfill my dreams, not someone else’s. 

Today I live each day with Acceptance, Responsibility, Defenselessness

Today I focus on being of service, expressing the power within, living in gratitude, and doing my A and B

Much Love to you all

JEN

Just one of the many things I have had to overcome 🙂

P.S.  Thanks to the insights of the lovely Lorelei Sunshine , “Nothing shall retard my new life’s growth” has transformed into, “‘My new life’s growth is soaring, THRIVING!”  Much love and many thanks, Lorelei!